The Misadventures of Quinxy von Besiex truths, lies, and everything in between

15Oct/100

Fay’s Fabrication Shop

Last month I visited my friend Fay and took some panoramas of his fabrication workshop.  Fay is one of the people I most respect and admire, he has created a life which is a model for us all.   I wish I lived closer so I could enjoy his company and conversation more.

Fay's Shop - The Main Room

Fay's Shop - The Power Hammer Room

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30Aug/101

The Madness of James Joyce’s Finnegans Wake

That James Joyce wrote a book called Finnegans Wake was not new information to me, that knowledge seeped into my brain by happenstance years ago, but it was only just now that I learned it is a charmingly unreadable mess.  A friend suggested we read it together, hinting at its peculiar nature, and that seemed a lovely idea to me, so in preparation I downloaded a copy to my Kindle so we could do just that.  Getting beyond the first few pages has proven more difficult than ever I could have imagined.  If you can understand (unaided) even 5% of what he's saying you are a better man or woman than I will ever be.

I'm a bit puzzled about what to think of Mr. Joyce's tome.  Were it a small fraction of its length I would declare it the clever work of a genius exploring the beautiful landscape of all available ideas, but its considerable  length and the considerable time it required to create suggests it the work of a genius (always or in latter years) gone mad.  I wish I was the sort who could slog his way through such a book, but the need to look up every third word presents quite an obstacle to ready enjoyment.  Perhaps it will take me the next seventeen years to read what it took him a similar seventeen years to write.  I marvel and applaud his effort, I just wish my attraction and appreciation was on a less theoretical plane.

Here's how the book opens, in case you think I'm lying about its degree of obfuscation...

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of bay, brings us by a commodius vicus of recirculation back to
Howth Castle and Environs.

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vanessy, were sosie sesthers wroth with twone nathandjoe. Rot a
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Finnegans Wake (w/ mouse-over annotations)

22Jun/102

Settling into Self & My Mancrush on Damian Kulash (OK Go)

I was just listening to OK Go, which led to re-watching some of their amazing videos, in particular This Too Shall Pass (Band Version), and This Too Shall Pass  (Rube Goldberg Version), InvincibleDo What You Want, Get Over It, and more.  I must confess to a big mancrush on their lead singer, Damian Kulash. At this hour of night, seated outside my local writer's haunt, sipping peppermint tea, trying to ignore the stabbing pains in my lower back, from a muscle strained during a week of noble exertions, I am in a curious mood. I will admit to the lesser parts of myself. And to the part of me that wants to be Damian Kulash, wishes my face knew how to contort into his charming smiles, wishes my body knew how to move between the poses of his lusts (and plays at person-ified loves), wishes my brain could reduce life down to his sparer, baser words, wishes my voice could project his cool, wishes others would find in me the gravitational pull others (and I) find in him, and wishes my brain seemed as engineered for this world of busy, busy, busy peopled now. But I am not Damian Kulash. I am me; and that is, and must be, enough. The beauty of life must come from the struggle to be, not the becoming. And I am not bemoaning who I am, I have a sincere affection for me. But I may forever be finding new comforts in old skin; a protracted settling into self.

^Quinxy

20Jun/100

The men and women who smoke cigars are…

...assholes. I define an asshole as one who routinely exercises their capacity to be an asshole, not one who is one 24/7. Hitler was an asshole, but he was also nice to his dogs. (Mandatory Godwin.) The reason that cigar smokers are assholes is because they have (generally) selected themselves into that group. They smoke a cigar consciously or unconsciously because of its association with power and privilege. They smoke cigars, and smoke them in public where I am observing them, comfortable in the knowledge that almost everyone (even cigarette smokers) are particularly annoyed by cigar smoke. In my experience only one capable of being an asshole pursues the accoutrement of power and privilege and is so comfortable unnecessarily offending others.

 

Every rule has exceptions, and I'm sure there are many people I've yet to meet who deviate from this one... but they appear to me a slim minority.

^Q

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12Jun/100

Osita Rides in the Chang Jiang Sidecar

This week I fixed up my Chang Jiang motorcycle (and sidecar) and got it back on the road. And I got Osita, my dog, all set up to ride with me.  I customized some open cockpit aviation goggles with new straps to fit a dog, and reworked a genuine Soviet-era tank commander's helmet to fit securely on her head. To ensure her safety she wears a harness which I clip to a mount attached to the inside of the sidcar bucket (she can sit or lie but otherwise stays put).

Tonight we went for a ride all around Venice, got chai by the beach, then went to Swinger's in Santa Monica for dinner.  Everywhere we went people were highly amused.

^ Quinxy

3May/100

The Waxing and Waning Legality of Alcohol, Drugs, & Guns

A friend of mine is pro-drugs and anti-guns.  She wants to legalize the former and crimminalize the latter.
Her position doesn't seem logically consistent to me and I hit upon an argument which I felt proves the point.  Here is that argument...
 
I was doing a bit of research to see if the argument I mentioned in the car yesterday might have any actual statistical merit to back it up.  I realized it's of course not really about drugs or guns, per se, but the broader question about how we make decisions based on the risk versus the reward of various activities with a mortality component.
 
Alcohol is legal and other drugs (marijuana) are moving towards legalization.  Combined they are estimated to kill about 100,000 people per year (80k from alcohol, 20k from drugs).  The deaths are from car accidents, other sorts of accidents, overdoses, organ failure, etc.  This does not include the vastly higher numbers of mental/emotional suffering personal or familial that their use creates, nor the huge physical or medical injuries/conditions that do not result in death.
 
Cigarettes are legal.  They are estimated to kill 400,000 people per year.  The nature of those deaths is a little different, admittedly, since cigarettes are more likely to kill older people than alcohol, drugs, or guns.  Children are, however, also allegedly negatively affected in terms of cancer rates, and issues such as asthma.
 
Guns are legal, but increasingly restricted.  They kill about 18,000 people a year.  For simplicity I'm not considering injuries, though I'd argue there's no need to consider them here, since the emotional and physical results from alcohol/drugs are much more larger. 
 
As someone who has never been drunk or high, I cannot imagine how the pleasure associated with alcohol or drugs warrants 100,000 deaths a year, not to mention the millions who suffer serious negative emotional effects directly and indirectly related to alcohol/drugs.
 
As someone who has shot a gun on a handful of occasions and enjoyed shooting guns (at targets, not animals) I can understand the pleasure associated with that activity.  And as someone who has been robbed and been threatened (with the police unable or unwilling to meaningfully assist), I can understand the desire and/or need for someone to want to protect themselves or their family.
 
So, I do not see why one choice of pleasure with a vastly worse mortality record should be increasingly legally protected while another far less dangerous activity should be increasingly restricted.  That does not seem consistent or reasonable.
 
And in fact alcohol/drug use and abuse are the root cause of the majority of the deaths/injuries from guns.  If alcohol and drugs were to magically vanish from the earth, the number of deaths from guns would plummet.  Most murders (and many suicides) directly or indirectly involve the influence of alchol/drugs (and in the case of murder, the sale of or attempt to secure drugs).
 
One final more profound but weaker argument I'd make...  Alcohol and drugs have no necessitated "value" for society.  One can achieve significantly similar states of altered consciousness without their use, through meditation, lucid dreaming, sleep deprivation, sweat lodges, etc. and those experiences come at very, very low risk (while also bringing spiritual/mental benefit).  People may choose alcohol/drugs because that is an easier route to altered consciousness, but that doesn't make it the right means to achieve that societal benefit.  Guns, on the other hand, do provide an arguable inherent value for society.  Used by responsible individuals in specific circumstances, they are the only means to effectively defend yourself and your family (the cops are useless to protect you in a home invasion, useless to prevent a rape, useless to prevent a mugging).  And used by a responsible society guns are the only means it has to ultimately defend itself against its government.  Jefferson said quite reasonably, "The strongest reason for the people to retain the right to keep and bear arms is, as a last resort, to protect themselves against tyranny in government." and "When the people fear their government, there is tyranny; when the government fears the people, there is liberty."
 
It seems inconsistent to gleefully want the legalization of alcohol/drugs while raging against the continued legalization of guns.
 
My own position is mostly a personal one.  I don't get drunk, I don't get high, and I have no guns.  But I'm not necessarily opposed, I may do any and/or all of those in the future.  If I were made god for a day I would rid the world of alcohol, drugs, and guns.  I think they are all dangerous distractions and poor ways to get by in the world.  But I recognize I am not god, and that no one can make those things happen.  So instead I reluctantly acknowledge that we're stuck with both realities and the benefits and problems they each bring.  I hope therefore that we can maximize the benefits of each while minimizing the negatives of each. 
 
 
Some links with some of the stats:
 
A note on how I calculated the 18,000 figure.  The number of gun related deaths is 30,000 people per year.  But let's break down that 30k number, since that's really not a fair number, since a good percentage of those deaths would have taken place anyway, with the use of another weapon.  Of that number, 56% are suicides, 40% are homicides, 4% are accidental (with 2% being truly unintentional).  Even in industrialized, modern countries where guns are banned there will be murders and suicides, so we can't fairly include those just because a gun is used.  The US murder rate is 3x the UK rate, the US suicide rate is roughly 2x.  Half of all suicides in the US use a firearm.  If we adjust the numbers to eliminate those people who would have used another weapon then the numbers might approximate: 8,000 murders (instead of 12k), 8,500 suicides (instead of 17k), 1,200 accidental deaths by firearm (same) for a new total of about 18,000 deaths per year which could arguably be said to be a mostly direct result of the existence of guns.  So, really we're talking about 18k deaths, not 30k deaths.  I suspect a fairer exploration of these numbers would further reduce this 18k quite a bit, when other elements of US culture versus UK society are considered. 

 

So that was my attempt to convince her...  either to be less in favor of banning guns, or less in favor of drug legalization/used, doesn't matter to me.  I'm sure my argument won't work, but it was a nice try.

Q

3May/100

A Chai Bought with Stolen Money Tastes Sweeter

Today I was walking to a cafe and I passed by the outside dining area of a restaurant.  I spotted a folded $20 bill lying under a bench about 10 feet away from where the patrons sit.  I quickly got to one knee as though tying my shoe, scooped up the $20 and then beat a hasty continuation of my journey. 

My normal response to the situation would have been to be more aggressively helpful.  I may have announced the discovery to nearby patrons, to nearby wait staff, perhaps to the manager.   I would have done everything conceivable to ensure the money was returned to its rightful owner.  Such goodness is exhausting and often punishing.  The world often misunderstands and reacts with an unkind suspicion and hostility to good in excess.  So today I elected to do only what the world expected, and to profit from it.

In the course or the day some poorer mysterious stranger bought me two chai lattes, a veggie burger, and a Coke and all were improved by the way I came by the money.

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25Apr/100

The Year of the Very Nearly Wrong

My resolution for this year is to be more mischievous, to keep only but absolutely one toe dipped in sinful waters. While I instinctively reject the notion that evil must exist in the world if there is to be good, I concede we are stuck with it.  As such, we might as well pay attention to what evil can teach us about being good, and living well, and use at least mildly evil acts as landmarks to plot our path towards goodlier shores.  So this year I am trying to better define that line between good and evil by probing that boundary with mischievous acts, getting as near as I dare, never quite stepping over.

The acts will all be harmless pseudo evils, intended (if having any external intention at all) to do no more than confuse, entropize, inspire, and/or incite. 

Among my mischievous goals for the year:

  • Create intricate large scale public hoaxes. [I've already completed one such hoax, getting the attention of tens of thousands of people!]
  • Graffitti meaningful messages / art in non-damaging public places.  [Working on the art for this.]
  • Lie pointlessly and frequently to strangers.
  • Practice and use a British and/or Scottish accent in public.
  • Always use random names when placing food, beverage orders.
  • Intercept a restaurant delivery order, happening to catch a delivery person on their way to someone's front door, paying for that food, then eating it (or donating it to homeless people if it has meat/fish). [Almost did this the other day.]
  • Send mysteriously intriguing packages to strangers around the country.
  • Steal silverware from some restaurants, which I'll return later thereby undoing wrong. [One setting borrowed thus far.]
  • Create, publish, promote, and win converts to my new religion.  [In progress.]
  • and more...

I'm pleased with my progress so far...  But it's about the journey, not the destination, so whatever I achieve will be a pleasingly good enough.

Quinxy

20Jan/100

My Vegetarian Dining Club passes 400 members and 70 events!

My Vegetarian Dining Club actually has 410 members and 71 past events; it's becoming so popular I've decided to require approval for membership.  So far I'm approving everyone, but it adds that nice exclusive touch, so that when you are let in, as I expect everyone will be, you feel that extra bit of specialness we all crave. ;)   Also, restriction sets the stage for the enforcement of rules, and the crafting of club culture.  Later this month we're having The Great Vegetarian Cabal of Twenty-Ten.

18Jan/100

My First Drawing

I've always wanted to learn how to draw, but never actually gave it much of a try. I've always had lots of ideas (for inventions, alternate realities, etc.) that I wanted to express, but had no means to express them. So, I recently set about trying to learn to draw. And this is my first ever attempt at drawing something meant to look real, with shading. The power went out today, and I couldn't work, so I sat by my kitchen window and sketched the candle stick on the table.