The Misadventures of Quinxy truths, lies, and everything in between!

7Apr/113

Reasons I Don’t Believe: Disclaimer

I want to make clear what is surely already clear: I am not a biblical or religious scholar. I am just a regular guy who tries to understand the universe around me and my place in it.  My beliefs are fluid and based on the information to which I am exposed.  The best I can say is that it seems unlikely I will be swayed from my present position of agnosticism, unless I find new information that shifts my understanding.  Given that I have been exposed to so much already, truly new information of real significance is hard to come by.

As for my background, I was raised a Christian (Episcopalian/Protestant), attended an Episcopalian grammar and high school school, served as an acolyte for a few years, went weekly to services through high school, was also exposed (through my dad) to a syncretic new-age church during visitations with him.  I have read most (if not all) of the New Testament and much (but not all) of the Old Testament (all in my youth).  I have read a few books on Christianity, but only a few.  I have read quite a bit more about unusual faiths (e.g., my dad's church/cult, Scientology, Mormons, Branch Davidians, Ramtha School of Enlightenment, etc.).  My favorite religion, the one which feels most true for me, is Zen Buddhism, but though I have read several of their books, and attended several of their services, and dabbled in some of their meditations, I cannot call myself a Buddhist.  Religion, it's meaning and influence on people, has always been profoundly interesting to me. If you disagree with me or find fault with what I say I encourage you to respectfully tell me where I have made any factual or logical errors. I am always eager to correct errors, or my own thinking (if I feel it is necessary).

While my present position is that I do not believe in God, I am not what you'd typically consider an atheist. Atheists by common definition know with absolute certainty that there is no God.  They have a confidence about their position that can only be described as religious.  As for me, I do not know if there is or is not a God, I know only that I have not found sufficient reason to believe in one, and instead found reasons not to. I fully acknowledge that there is ample space within the framework of physics and quantum physics for Him to operate, I simply find no proof that He does.

I enjoy discussing these topics with all people who are confident enough in their own divergent views to find our discussion enjoyable rather than frustrating and heretical.  Despite what some may think, I see us as all looking for the same answers, trying to resolve the same mysteries.  If you've found your answers, congratulations!  I am still finding mine.

These blog entries are not meant to de-convert anyone, they are simply my exploring my own thoughts and observations in the public view.  Greater minds have covered these topics, covered all topics, but that doesn't mean we lesser minds don't enjoy our time in the sun. 🙂

^ Quinxy

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  1. I’ve read most of your “reasons” for not believing in God. I too, have been exposed to several different denominations of christianity and find it an almost laughable notion that your clear, concise reasoning(s) could be easily dismissed if people would only forgo their blind faith. How much can faith deter someone’s reasoning in the face of logic? Agnosticism, to atheists and religious folks alike, may seem to be on both sides of the fence, but truth be told, possibly nine-tenths of our bodies are actually on the atheistic side of the fence. I have seen many documentaries refuting christianity and its belief system, but reading your “reasons” was like hearing my inner voice out loud. I can’t always articulate my thoughts, but now I don’t need to. There are more reasons, sadly, that you didn’t even mention in detail, but was basically expressed in general terms in most of your “reasons”. I wonder how many hard line christians or muslims or Jews or any other religious people will come across this site and actually read and be “enlightened” like Neo (of Matrix fame) and/or encouraged to listen with their intellect to what is, in my opinion, sound and irrefutable “reasons” for not having blind faith. People can still believe, but they should exercise their “God given” right to think for themselves and then maybe they can see that the Almighty, if he indeed exists, may not be this infallible, omniscient being. He may be flawed in his thinking. Therefore, the character in the two main religious books of this world may be a fabrication of humans, whom we know is capable of everyhting utterly opposite of what Jesus was supposed to be- good/evil, merciful/merciless, truthful,liars, etc. Thanks for allowing me to see my thoughts, through your ability, on this monitor. I guess I’m sort of like Moses that way. Can’t articulate, but I know it’s there.

  2. Ewizzle,

    Thanks for the thoughtful comment.

    I do find the faith element so curious. I have no doubt that if I just allowed myself to have the faith the religious expect/require then I, too, would feel what they feel (to some degree), and I would (gradually, perhaps) come to believe as they believe. But having that experience and coming to that belief does not require anything more than a psychological malleability on the part of we glorious humans; nothing “divine” is required. To me it seems exactly like the situations in which I’ve had friends try to get me to experiment with LSD or magic mushrooms. They say that if I try it I’ll see everything in the universe so much more clearly, that I’ll come to new understandings about the interconnectedness of all things, etc. And, I have no reason to doubt that would in fact be my experience, but there is little reason to think there’s any solidity/reality underpinning those new beliefs, whether the author is an organic compound or a diety. There’s clearly a fine line, between being open minded enough that you see more than your quiet preconceptions might otherwise allow, and remaining closed minded enough that you don’t lose yourself chasing down dozens of dead end rabbit holes.

  3. Actually, most of my atheist friends don’t know with “absolute certainty” that there is not a god. I, being an atheist myself, don’t know it with absolute certainty either. Yet neither my friends nor I label themselves as agnostics. It’s just that while we admit there is a possibility there is a god, we find it so very extremely unlikely as to find it perfectly OK to discard such a possibility altogether. Believing in a god is kind of like worrying every single second that a brick will fall and hit you on your head–it’s possible, but very improbable, so there is little need to poison one’s existence obsessing over this possibility (not to mention the fact that the existence of a god is actually even less likely than that of a proverbial brick killing you).

    So, it seems to me, you, too, are probably an atheist; just one who’s a little scared to use that particular label 🙂


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